vicious_life

Well, yes, I am writing this because I am bored. And yes, there really isn't anything better to do right now. Nothing is on T.V., I've cleaned the whole house, completed all my assignments, and am sitting here at 4 P.M. doing absolutely nothing, so why not write a journal entry while I'm at it huh?

I can honestly say that I've been hanging out with friends less, but I also don't really feel like it anymore. Gone are the days where I would start calling them just because I really wanted to, these days, I just don't want to really speak to many of them. I think I need some new friends... So this might seem odd for me to be writing about boredom and also stating that there are friends that I could call, but that just wouldn't solve the problem. Maybe it's just a side effect of getting older steadily, but I'm also losing interest in some things I used to love. For example, I used to absolutely love playing video games, but recently, I barely touch them. Yes I know I've written an entry about Deus Ex,  but apart from that, I haven't touched a game in well over a month. Movies are also slipping down the drain,and the last one I saw happened to be "Satan Rides the Media" a black Metal documentary.

Well, that's another thing I've realized, as I become more and more separated from past joys, my love for music seems to be growing especially for black metal. I'm not sure if I've finally just seen why it's such a powerful genre, but I've started to listen to it a lot more than before (even though I have been listening to it for 3-4 years now).I used to be into melodic death and Death Metal much more strongly before, and the flame seems to be dieing, as I'm starting to drift away from those and listen to more Black Metal, even revisiting some old favorite like Burzum and getting into some new favorites like "Thy Light". Well, I'm not sure if this is really a good substitute for all the other things I used to love, but while I listen to it, it takes some of the boredom away, so I suppose that's good.

Still, I need a new hobby, something original, something I haven't really done before. Though, it seems I've already tried most things, yes, I've played multiple sports, Soccer, Basketball, Tennis, you name it I've probably played it. Though many sports just bore me, some are pretty fun. Maybe something like Biking will be next, I need to keep myself occupied somehow, because this is honestly just boring to be sitting here online for so long every single day. Maybe I just need to go out and find some new friends :)

Anyway, that's it for my rant. Goodbye!

I would without a doubt go to the country of Poland. I'm 100% Polish, and have many relatives and friends there (ok, so some of them now live in Austria but for the most part...). Not only that, but the country is a beautiful place, from the serene landscapes, to the enormous cities that dwarf even some American ones.


Not only that, but the Polish economy is much better than the average person thinks (in fact, I know some people that still think Poland is a country where the average person spends their all their time on a farm), which is by no means true at all. It's a bit of a depressing country, I mean, the Russians did completely destroy the economy after WWII ( most people seem to think of the russians as saviors from the Nazis, but read again, the russians were the ones who really made Poland turn into a living hell some 50 years ago) and it has only recently 10-15 years ago started to rebuild itself up, so the cities ( in some areas) still have that forlorn look to them. Not to mention it is a very cloudy place, or at least, whenever I seem to go there on trips it is almost always cloudy.

Still, the country would offer me just as much as a home as the USA would, so naturally, that is where I would go if I had to. In fact, I was and still am considering applying to one of the major universities in Poland. But we'll see :)