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I would without a doubt go to the country of Poland. I'm 100% Polish, and have many relatives and friends there (ok, so some of them now live in Austria but for the most part...). Not only that, but the country is a beautiful place, from the serene landscapes, to the enormous cities that dwarf even some American ones.


Not only that, but the Polish economy is much better than the average person thinks (in fact, I know some people that still think Poland is a country where the average person spends their all their time on a farm), which is by no means true at all. It's a bit of a depressing country, I mean, the Russians did completely destroy the economy after WWII ( most people seem to think of the russians as saviors from the Nazis, but read again, the russians were the ones who really made Poland turn into a living hell some 50 years ago) and it has only recently 10-15 years ago started to rebuild itself up, so the cities ( in some areas) still have that forlorn look to them. Not to mention it is a very cloudy place, or at least, whenever I seem to go there on trips it is almost always cloudy.

Still, the country would offer me just as much as a home as the USA would, so naturally, that is where I would go if I had to. In fact, I was and still am considering applying to one of the major universities in Poland. But we'll see :)

Well, yes, I am writing this because I am bored. And yes, there really isn't anything better to do right now. Nothing is on T.V., I've cleaned the whole house, completed all my assignments, and am sitting here at 4 P.M. doing absolutely nothing, so why not write a journal entry while I'm at it huh?

I can honestly say that I've been hanging out with friends less, but I also don't really feel like it anymore. Gone are the days where I would start calling them just because I really wanted to, these days, I just don't want to really speak to many of them. I think I need some new friends... So this might seem odd for me to be writing about boredom and also stating that there are friends that I could call, but that just wouldn't solve the problem. Maybe it's just a side effect of getting older steadily, but I'm also losing interest in some things I used to love. For example, I used to absolutely love playing video games, but recently, I barely touch them. Yes I know I've written an entry about Deus Ex,  but apart from that, I haven't touched a game in well over a month. Movies are also slipping down the drain,and the last one I saw happened to be "Satan Rides the Media" a black Metal documentary.

Well, that's another thing I've realized, as I become more and more separated from past joys, my love for music seems to be growing especially for black metal. I'm not sure if I've finally just seen why it's such a powerful genre, but I've started to listen to it a lot more than before (even though I have been listening to it for 3-4 years now).I used to be into melodic death and Death Metal much more strongly before, and the flame seems to be dieing, as I'm starting to drift away from those and listen to more Black Metal, even revisiting some old favorite like Burzum and getting into some new favorites like "Thy Light". Well, I'm not sure if this is really a good substitute for all the other things I used to love, but while I listen to it, it takes some of the boredom away, so I suppose that's good.

Still, I need a new hobby, something original, something I haven't really done before. Though, it seems I've already tried most things, yes, I've played multiple sports, Soccer, Basketball, Tennis, you name it I've probably played it. Though many sports just bore me, some are pretty fun. Maybe something like Biking will be next, I need to keep myself occupied somehow, because this is honestly just boring to be sitting here online for so long every single day. Maybe I just need to go out and find some new friends :)

Anyway, that's it for my rant. Goodbye!

I personally believe the printing press is the sole greatest invention. Without the printing press, it could take years for a few copies of the same book to be made, meaning that only the very rich could afford to read books, this of course didn't allow the lower classes to read, and so made them unable to obtain the same information that let's say the rich had.

Once this was invented, everybody had access to literature, and everybody could garner the same information , and so the intelligence level went up a great deal. Just think how primitive we would probably still be if not for this invention.

Well, I've never tried listening to music whilst studying before, but today, I was just dying to hear that Nazgul album I got, so I just put on my headphones on low volume, opened up the books and started to study. To my very pleasant surprise, I never got distracted at all from my work. Usually when doing homework/studying, my mind drifts endlessly after an hour or so, but not now at all. It was odd, as I thought the music would provide a distraction, it actually did quite the opposite, it kept me focused on my work.

I guess I will be listening to much more music while studying now, because hey, if it helps, it helps, and it certainly is helping now. So yea, pretty cool huh? I thought it was a bad idea, but it turned out to help me, maybe you should try it as well ;]. though I probably would recommend it be something of the atmospheric sort, maybe Cannibal Corpse or Kronos aren't the best choices.

What is it with  the media portraying this moron as some kind of messiah to America? You can no longer open a Newsweek magazine without reading Obama love articles, and seeing so many "bad" things about Mccain. It is also racist to be against Obama, as far as the media is concerned. They claim him to be a smart, intelligent young man. You have got to be fucking kidding me right? This retard cannot even cover his own trail properly, and yet so many people think he is a good guy. Some even just because he is Black (yes I have met people like this). If it is racist to hate him because he is black, isn't it also racist to love him just because he is Black?

Let's see, if he really is such a great person that will end wars, and make "peace in the middle east" would the Terrorist Group Hamas openly want him to win the election? I think not. Hamas wants to continue conducting their terrorist ways, and electing a good president is exactly what they don't want.

Not to mention, with all this talk about racism, Barack Obama is the only one that is really racist here. He was raised his entire life to hate The White Race, and to hate America. He was surrounded all his life by Radical Muslims (I believe his brother was the cause of some major voilence in Kenya). A great candidate for President huh? Someone the media sure should support, don't ya think? You gotta be kidding me, what the hell is wrong with you America!?

I guess I might as well go on a bit. Obama also frequently lies about countless things. For example, he claims his father was a kenyan "Freedom Fighter". That's just pure BS, his father was part of one of the most corrupt governments in history! If that's his definition of freedom fighter, he shouldn't even be seriously considered for president!

The media also cannot get over how great a speaker he is! What the ...? How stupid are the media, have they ever taken a American Government course? Or has every single one of them been somehow brainwashed by this idiot. Using his hired writer's words is not the same as being a great speaker, anyone can read passionatly off a piece of paper. Get used to it, your messiah is a fake.

This is a self centered, sick minded, and thoroughly stupid individual. I can't think what I will do if we allow such a person to become President of this (once) great country! If I still haven't convinced you, please! - read some by youself, visit some websites I will provide below. This man is terrible, the only "big change in Politics" he will bring is one of further lies and deceit.

www.dontvoteobama.net
http://www.antiobama.net

These are just two great sites to read through. We need to keep this racist maniac out of office! It's scary enough just how far he has gotten through lies and deceit so far, so stop him while you can and we can start to rebuild the damage that he has caused.

Thank you for your Attention.

I think the late night is the best time of day. For some of us who are mild to strong Insomniacs, it is no problem to stay up late to experience it. It is much more calm, peaceful and mysterious time than any other. There is just about nobody to bother you, and nothing is stirring to make you uneasy. The world is in a sense, Dead, and you seem to be the only one still alive, and trust me, it is a great feeling. Perhaps this is different in very urban areas, but in more suburban or rural areas, this is the truth.

Well, as I recently switched to being a full time Linux user, I finally decided to try out some windows only games using various emulation methods. While I do have a dual-boot with Vista on another partition, I hate having to reboot just to play some PC games.

Anyway, I decided why not try Deus Ex, it was one of my favorite (if not thee favorite) games of all time, and under my laptop (128 MB Video RAM, 2.2 GHZ AMD 64 processor) it ran extremely choppy with Windows Vista, I was of course, confused, because I had played this game very successfully on a much slower PC before, and no amount of driver updates, and custom configuration would allow it to work correctly.

With this in mind, I didn't think that emulation would fix anything, but, it sure did. Under Wine, Deus Ex runs surprisingly well, even better than on Windows XP or 2000. I would think that it's native platform would support it better than just an emulated environment, but I guess in my case that's just not true. Well, I suppose it is a good thing for me, since I loved that game, and still do, so now, its off to play some more Deus Ex!

Just some small notes for Windows/Mac users, Wine is an emulation program that lets you run (not always[usually] perfeclty) but still run, windows .EXE files. And for some readers that haven't yet played Deus Ex, it may be old, but damn, if you haven't played this amazing game, than you cannot righteously judge any other games.

It's odd the way that life goes isn't it? Think about it for only a few seconds, the idea should hit you square in the face. It doesn't matter if you are a student, a business man, a nurse, a doctor, a lawyer, perhaps it may matter if you are a psychologist. But, we all know, that the way that life goes around and around is simply freaky, odd, and disturbing.

It seems that no matter what we do, someone will always be angry with us, someone will hate you for it, and you will hate someone for something else. Again, the question is why, but unlike last time, I think I have an answer this time. Get ready for it... Human Nature... That I believe, in it's pure undisturbed form, is the sole reason of why people are such jerks to each other. This may be a bit hard to explain, but I'll try it anyway.

Unless you believe in a some sort of very mainstream religion, you probably are open to the idea and possibility that humans are superior animals, the dominating force of the world. Masters of it, feel free to decide what you want to call it. Well, the keyword here is animal. An animal doesn't care about what others think of it. They eat, mate, and go through the motions of life without really showing any emotion. (There are occasional exceptions, but for the most part this holds true.)

Since at the core, humans are animals, this nature is also at the core. So no matter how our brains try to develop our conscience to act, our core is still ill-natured. In the end, we don't care whether someone else is happy, we do what we need to do to help ourselves along. Occasionally, our brains take over and we do not do something that would benefit us, in effect, hurting ourselves for the sake of another. But still, the way the world goes around, and how people act when they are angry, truly show the human core. We don't really care when it comes down to it. I  could go on and give a million examples, but I think this will be enough to explain my point.

Why?

That is THE question I ask myself when doing Mathematical Problems. WHY do I not understand this, this objective that can be so simple, yet so deceivingly difficult. I have no trouble understanding difficult concepts, about other things.

Ask me all  about the Theory of Relativity, or, go ahead, as me all about some obscure religion like MLO or Wicca, I can probably tell you a good deal about it. Go ahead, ask me about the English language, some nuance in it, or some trick question that a teacher might pull. On all of these topics, I can answer you, I'll answer you well. I'll answer you fully, and I'll not have you feel confused.

As me now, about Calculus, about some certain Rational Expressions, and your answer may very well be left unanswered, left undone, left to rot in hell. I, for some reason, have a difficult time understanding mathematics. Like so many others that I know, Mathematics is the only real subject that seems to be so difficult to grasp.

Now, the only question left to answer is once again, "Why?". Something to ponder on? Certainly. Something I feel I will find the answer to? No.